Well the good times were short-lived. Just two weeks after telling the world I was finally feeling better with this pregnancy, I’m feeling rubbish again.
Emotionally, I’m beginning to worry about the stresses of having another little one to look after. As Craig is self-employed and solely responsible for supporting this mini family, the night-feeds will be my job (and my job alone) from Day 1. Of course, this would be the case anyway, it’s not like Craig can detach my boobs and get on with it without me! But all of a sudden it seems very real and very scary.
With Dexter not yet at nursery, and getting ever-more demanding throughout the day - I do worry I might see a resurgence of PND too. I also really worry about how my little man will cope with sharing me… and how I will cope being shared! I have this mental image of Mini Madam latching on and Dexter emerging into the room with various treasures he’s managed to collect from around the house - bleach, knives, and scissors… Of course these things are usually locked away, but what if I’m exhausted and get careless, or if Dexter develops telekinesis due to abandonment issues???
In other news, I’m positively ravenous. The odd cherry bakewell and satsuma doesn’t touch the sides anymore. I’ve read that an 11lb weight gain is typical in the third trimester but if this carries on I’m likely to surpass that and eventually require air-lifting to the hospital!
We also saw our gorgeous daughter in 3D this week. Craig managed to get a sneak peek too, in-between liberating various medical instruments from Dexie’s clutches throughout the scan. We counted all her toes and fingers and all the right bits were in the right places… including her girlie bits. This was such a relief. There was however bad news to come.
It seems my wonky belly button is due to Mini Madam chilling in just the one side of my belly. My placenta is wedged in beside her and she’s largely confined to my left hand side. Her feet are also wedged in beside her ears in all the tell-tale signs of another extended breech situation. What are the chances???
So it seems I have yet another Tom Daley wannabe lounging in my tummy. Dexter adopted exactly the same position throughout my first pregnancy and it ended with a failed ECV and a ruptured placenta. On my first day of maternity leave I bled out in my living room and had to call an ambulance. Dexter was delivered by emergency c-section a matter of hours later.
Of course there’s a slim chance baby could do a few somersaults and get into position before D Day - but there’s not much room in there for her to pull out such gymnastic feats. Of course I’ll be offered another ECV to try and poke and prod her over-and-under. But I’m beginning to think it would be selfish of me to even attempt this. An ECV might seem like the safest option, but I’ve seen firsthand what happens when it goes wrong. The thought of her getting tangled in my umbilical cord, or kicking my placenta to bits and compromising her ability to get those vital nutrients, frightens me more than the prospect of yet another c-section.
Of course I’m really reveling in the ‘what if’s’ here, but I’m still disappointed and worried. I had been really excited about the prospect of giving birth naturally and it’s sad to think I won’t be able to experience this. I also worry about whether my body will be able to cope with another pregnancy after this.
I’m off to see my midwife tomorrow - seems we have lots to talk about…
Lovely pics from 3D, we will be having our later in April or May, cant wait for my 20th weeks scan first)
I hope everything will be fine and baby will be delivered safely, maybe something will change?! as you have still few weeks to go..fingers crossed for you and your little one
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Thanks my lovely - I’ll be keeping an eye out for your 20 week update
Stay positive you. There’s time yet. And you know what another section, whilst not your preferred route, is NOT the end of the world (and there speaks the voice of experience!)
Big loves x x x
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Thanks honey. I know it wouldn’t be the worst outcome - but then part of me thinks just how lucky we were with Dexter. If we’d have left it much longer before getting Dex out of the sun roof, he might not have made it. I don’t know this for certain, I didn’t ask my midwife / GP etc - but surely no placenta = no baby? I think for my own peace of mind I’m definitely reconsidering the whole natural birth thing x
It certainly puts a very different slant on things - and is much easier to accept if you know its safer for your little girl x x
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Definitely. I’d never ever ever ever have another ECV as I just don’t think it’s as safe as they make out. I think it would be selfish of me to put her through it when she could have a safer delivery via c-section.
Aww Hun. Great news it’s a baby girl but sorry to hear she has little room and is breech. Try not to worry about the what if’s. What will be will be. You have o do what’s right for you and baby and if that means another C section then so be it. A planned one should be so different to an emergency one. I’m sure you will feel better once you have spoken to the midwife. Good luck Hun. Everything will work at for the best. xx
Thanks Jo. I’m definitely looking forward to talking things through with my midwife. You’re right - it’s definitely got to be the safest option for both of us. And it might feel 100x better having a planned c-section. I’m just nervous
Aww bless - she is so cute! Ill say a prayer that the little madam does a turn and get into the correct position! Try not to get to stressed and enjoy the last few weeks xoxo
lovely pictures i bet it was nice to see her again!
you have plenty of time for naughty miss to go head down i can highly recommend you acupuncture and something called moxibustion i had it done for over a week from 35-36 and blob turned with 36+2 i have everything crossed for you xx
Please try not to worry it is no good for you, I understand your worries tho I had them too, both my children had the cord wrapped round their necks three times but they were fine and midwifes deal with this and breech births all the time so i’m sure everything will be ok. Also I had my second daughter just under a year after my first and was worried about them learning to share me and how i’d cope especially as i split from their father shortly after my second child was born so had to raise them alone; but we all got used to it, kids are very adaptable and i managed, it was a struggle but you just have to take each day as it comes and try and involve your other child as much as possible, they may enjoy helping you with the baby. I wish you all the best - Natalie x
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